"You're Pathetic."

"You're Pathetic", is a lovely sentence that I have used recently now toward a certain person. Well, it's true. We all know who I am talking about, Mr. Abusive. Honesty always was the best policy, it has been taught down for many generations, so yes I will call you pathetic because it is the truth. Getting your lame friends to add me on Facebook just to be a spy for you is...PATHETIC. Lying under oath when you are supposively a "so-called" christian is...PATHETIC. Dating minor girlfriends because you can not get someone your own age is...PATHETIC, I don't blame those older mature girls because you are too immature and dumb to date someone your own age. How old are you? Oh yes, 21. Ha. Lame. You....are....indeed, pathetic. Enough said.
So, "Mr. Abusive" why did you always tell me to be honest with you when you can not even handle the truth? Oh yes that's right, you are too immature to handle the truth. I always got told I was immature by you and you were the mature one. I am 17. You are 21. When I posted on my Facebook status, "You're Pathetic.", you went on your page and bashed me. Hmmm...is that mature? No. I spoke the truth while all you did was commit slander and cry like a big baby. Come on, really? You said I was immature? Ha. Pathetic.

Psychotic Family.

As we all know, I am pregnant. There has been a lot of issues since I found out I was pregnant. The issues have came from my baby's father side of the family. They are nothing but psychotic. When I found out I was pregnant, I was only four weeks. They had already bought furniture and clothing for the baby and what pissed me off the most was that it was all boy furniture and clothing. I mean, I am not mad because it was all boy furniture and clothing, it was the fact that they had already had it "planned" and "figured out" that it was going to be a boy. Every time that I would speak of it being a girl or even when I said "What if it is a girl?", they got mad at me. What the hell is up with that? Sounds a little sexist to me. Don't get me wrong, but I would love to have a boy but then again what if it is a girl? It was rude in my opinion. Another thing that royally pissed me off was that they were buying furniture and clothes that early into my pregnancy because I was only four weeks. Four weeks is very early in a pregnancy because at that time you do not know if you are going to miscarry or if something might go wrong. That family is so arrogant with themselves. For instance, his mother already had it planned out that she would have my baby, MY BABY, the most. Sorry, I don't think so, lady. She can not even raise her own kids, so why would I let her have any control over mine? That's right, I am not going to let her except for maybe when hell decided to freeze over but I don't see that happening anytime soon. I would never let my baby around a woman who lets men trade in Hydrocodones to have sex with her or would I ever, ever let my baby around the abusive kids she raised. The father of my child decided to beat the crap out of a 15 year old who suffered from Asperger's syndrome aka Autism while he was still in high school. Thank god, the authorities decided to kick him out of that high school. Who in the hell has the nerve to do that to a special child? Would you let your children be around someone like that? I don't think you would and if you did...you need counseling. Even though that was back in 2009, he tells people he has changed but if he did change then why would I be in the situation I am in now? Exactly, he hasn't changed and probably never will. Even his sister commits domestic violence and abuses drugs. What kind of people are they? Psychotic, arrogant people if you ask me. Yes, I know I messed up and got into a relationship with a guy I did not know anything about and I regret it til this day but everyone messes up in their lifetime. I know I am not the only one who has gone through this. So, do any of you think I should let them have any rights to my baby? Please leave me a comment and give me your feedback. To the people who read my blogs, I am sorry to come off harsh but it is my time to have my voice heard.

Pregnant at an Early Age.

Becoming pregnant at an early age is definately a life changing experience. Even though I have not experienced being a mother just yet, I have changed a lot in my life to ready myself for this baby. I am going to be a single mother since the father is not welcomed in our lives due to the fact that he was an abusive human-being. I do not know what kind of mother would let someone like that stay in their lives, especially in their baby's life because it is our duty as a parent to keep our children safe and protected from those who are dangerous. I am willing to fight for my child and I will do what ever it takes to keep him away from my family, my baby, and myself.

I have decided to put college and work aside for right now so that I can go through a safe pregnancy and so I can prepare myself for this baby. After I have my baby, I plan on attending a community college and then going off to a four year university for my Master degrees in Computer Science and in Crminal Justice. As for work, I plan to work in a hospital as a pharmacy technician. My college courses will be taken at night so I can watch my baby during the day and hopefully my mom can watch him/her at night when she gets off work. I know it will be hard, but I am always up for a little challenge.

My family have been really supportive. At first, I was really scared for them to know that I was in fact pregnant at 17 with someone I barely knew. They have been supportive even though we are all not proud of who the father of my baby is. We all make mistakes. I am not saying that my baby is a mistake, but the father definately is, indeed, a mistake. I am glad I have a loving and supportive family, because if I did not have any of that, I do not know where I would be in life.