Undo It by Carrie Underwood.
I should have known by the way you passed me by
There was something in your eyes and it wasn't right
I should have walked but I never had the chance
Everything got out of hand and I let it slide
Now I only have myself to blame for falling for your stupid games
I wish my life could be the way it was before I saw your face
You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I'm starting to see everything you lack
Boy, you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na
Now your photos don't have a picture frame
And I never say your name and I never will
And all your things, well I threw them in the trash
And I'm not even sad
Now you only have yourself to blame for playing all those stupid games
You're always gonna be the same and, oh no, you'll never change
You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I'm starting to see everything you lack
Boy, you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na
You want my future, you can't have it
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I'm still trying to erase you from my past
I need you gone so fast
You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I'm starting to see everything you lack
Boy, you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
Boy, you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Not Guilty and Guilty, There's a Difference.
Has America's government become so malicious that they are giving non-guilty victims accused of murder the death penalty? Why is it that the government will allow people who have been pleaded guilty get a set amount of bail and be let free? It is not right that a man, Troy Davis, who was accused of murder was put under the death penalty when the government had no evidence of him killing a police officer. "Everyone is innocent until proven guilty." How come that one of the most hated women in America, Casey Anthony, can get away with murder to her daughter when there was evidence and also get a one million dollar deal? Are we paying child murderers now? Same with Lindsey Lowe, she killed her newborn twins by suffocating them when there was definite evidence and the court system still agreed to free her on a $250,000 bail bond. Why is it OK for these two women to get away with murder to innocent babies who had no chance of life while an innocent man gets put under the death penalty when he was not even proven guilty? It is nonsense. The government has so much hatred at them right now due to this. If someone is on death row and that person is still pleading that they are innocent knowing that they are going to die, then you should know they are definitely telling the truth. In a few days, months, years, however long it takes, I am pretty sure the real person who is guilty for killing that police officer will be revealed then the government will know they screwed up big time, but will they care? Probably not. No one deserves to die.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Men vs. Women
Why do men only use women to get what they want? How come when we want something in return, it is just unacceptable? Women need to start standing up for themselves when it comes to these ungrateful bastards. Men do not care about women, they only care about themselves. We stand up for them because we see and hear what they want us to believe is the true side of them. If they say they are not that kind of guy to do so-and-so, that is the biggest lie that could come out of a man’s mouth because odds are they are who they say they are not. Men are nothing but manipulative lying animals. If women have not seen this side in a man, then consider yourself lucky. One thing women cannot deny is that their man is “perfect” or they know of a “perfect” man. All guys have their flaws, not one of them is perfect. Sorry ladies, that perfect guy we all dream about being with is only in our fantasies or is a fake character on television or in a movie…they do not exist. Actually, let’s get to the real reason I am writing this blog...
I am a frustrated 18-year old girl who has been through it all when it comes to guys. Let’s see here…my dad is a narcissistic man who uses my mom and I only when he is in need for something and of course, if we do not live up to his expectations or drop everything for him, who gets yelled at? My mom and I. He has no control over us and that is what kills him the most. Sorry dad, but you are a big boy…do it yourself. Guys that were called my boyfriends, you are no longer worthy enough to be known as my ex. All my exes have, indeed, cheated on me and used me for sex. I do believe that is all men do nowadays. Two of my exes, Chandler and Scotty (Andrew) still contact me but it is only when they want something like a picture or sex. I mean, come on, Scotty you have a girlfriend. What gets me is that I am a pregnant girl who has been through the worse but nothing seems to phase them. It is like they have no standards, they are past the desperate point. In fact, I would like to say that if you are a guy and you are so desperate that you basically have no morals or standards when it comes to getting laid…then go buy yourself a blow-up doll from an adult novelty store to satisfy your needs. The one ex that definitely does not deserve to be known as my ex is a certain guy who not only used me for sex but also got me pregnant. This guy was abusive to be. He never laid a hand on me but he would always threaten me and was always verbally abusive. The good thing was I did take him to court but it took me about two long months to realize how dumb I was for being with him. One day, June 14th 2011, he tried to run me off the mountain while I was pregnant with his kid. We were broken up at the time but that did not seem to matter because he had this idea that I was his property. In my belief, if you are single then you can talk to whomever you want. He did not like me talking to family, friends, guys, of course…anyone who was not a part of his family, I could not talk to. I was miserable but the great thing about it is, I am away from him because I finally decided to stand up against him after that day and I went to court and got myself a protection order. Best thing I ever did. All that worries me now is my baby’s safety.
Men just have no standards or boundaries when it comes to women. They have no respect for us. In the workforce, at home, school…men think they are better, no matter what. Men think they are stronger, wiser, and more superior but actually they are not. Sorry, guys. Women may be on-going talkers, sometimes whiners, and even bitchy but that is who we are and if we have to deal with your load of crap every single day then you can do the same. In fact, men are not stronger than women…yeah; they may be able to lift more weight than us but are they physically and emotionally stronger? That’s the strength that matters. To men out there, can you carry a living human inside your body for 9 months at a time? How about push that 9 pound baby out of a 10 cm hole? No, I didn’t think so. Ok, can a guy get hurt, put down, and walk around like nothing is wrong at the same time? Nope. Men do not realize what women go through. So quit complaining that we women are nothing but whiners, control freaks, non-stop talkers, or my personal favorite…bitches. While you men are nothing but self-centered sex freaks that cheat on women and only care about your jobs while we lovely women are taking care of your children, you guys are all assholes. We, women may have our flaws but you men have twice as many. While we clean, most of you sit on the couch with your hands down your pants. When we ask you to do one tiny little task, you all complain because you are too lazy to get off your asses because you all had a long, hard day at work. Come on, really? Women clean, cook, take care of the kids, run errands, and everything else while the men get to go away to work for half the day. Oh you men just have it so hard...suck it up! When it comes to taking care of the children, you all either whine or “supposedly have to run out and do an errand”. To the married men out there, I am pretty sure those “late night hours at work” are not spent at work unless your work contains late night hours fooling around with your co-worker. You are not fooling anyone, except your clueless wives maybe. Men walk around acting like they own the place and they are the ones who run this world. Last time I checked women are the ones who brought you into this world and we can take you right out of it. The saying “You can’t live with them and you can’t live without them”, is an understatement. I know plenty of women who can live without them and I am one of them.
P.S. To the men that do not treat women like garbage...thank you, do not change because women need good guys out there to treat them the way they should be treated.
I am a frustrated 18-year old girl who has been through it all when it comes to guys. Let’s see here…my dad is a narcissistic man who uses my mom and I only when he is in need for something and of course, if we do not live up to his expectations or drop everything for him, who gets yelled at? My mom and I. He has no control over us and that is what kills him the most. Sorry dad, but you are a big boy…do it yourself. Guys that were called my boyfriends, you are no longer worthy enough to be known as my ex. All my exes have, indeed, cheated on me and used me for sex. I do believe that is all men do nowadays. Two of my exes, Chandler and Scotty (Andrew) still contact me but it is only when they want something like a picture or sex. I mean, come on, Scotty you have a girlfriend. What gets me is that I am a pregnant girl who has been through the worse but nothing seems to phase them. It is like they have no standards, they are past the desperate point. In fact, I would like to say that if you are a guy and you are so desperate that you basically have no morals or standards when it comes to getting laid…then go buy yourself a blow-up doll from an adult novelty store to satisfy your needs. The one ex that definitely does not deserve to be known as my ex is a certain guy who not only used me for sex but also got me pregnant. This guy was abusive to be. He never laid a hand on me but he would always threaten me and was always verbally abusive. The good thing was I did take him to court but it took me about two long months to realize how dumb I was for being with him. One day, June 14th 2011, he tried to run me off the mountain while I was pregnant with his kid. We were broken up at the time but that did not seem to matter because he had this idea that I was his property. In my belief, if you are single then you can talk to whomever you want. He did not like me talking to family, friends, guys, of course…anyone who was not a part of his family, I could not talk to. I was miserable but the great thing about it is, I am away from him because I finally decided to stand up against him after that day and I went to court and got myself a protection order. Best thing I ever did. All that worries me now is my baby’s safety.
Men just have no standards or boundaries when it comes to women. They have no respect for us. In the workforce, at home, school…men think they are better, no matter what. Men think they are stronger, wiser, and more superior but actually they are not. Sorry, guys. Women may be on-going talkers, sometimes whiners, and even bitchy but that is who we are and if we have to deal with your load of crap every single day then you can do the same. In fact, men are not stronger than women…yeah; they may be able to lift more weight than us but are they physically and emotionally stronger? That’s the strength that matters. To men out there, can you carry a living human inside your body for 9 months at a time? How about push that 9 pound baby out of a 10 cm hole? No, I didn’t think so. Ok, can a guy get hurt, put down, and walk around like nothing is wrong at the same time? Nope. Men do not realize what women go through. So quit complaining that we women are nothing but whiners, control freaks, non-stop talkers, or my personal favorite…bitches. While you men are nothing but self-centered sex freaks that cheat on women and only care about your jobs while we lovely women are taking care of your children, you guys are all assholes. We, women may have our flaws but you men have twice as many. While we clean, most of you sit on the couch with your hands down your pants. When we ask you to do one tiny little task, you all complain because you are too lazy to get off your asses because you all had a long, hard day at work. Come on, really? Women clean, cook, take care of the kids, run errands, and everything else while the men get to go away to work for half the day. Oh you men just have it so hard...suck it up! When it comes to taking care of the children, you all either whine or “supposedly have to run out and do an errand”. To the married men out there, I am pretty sure those “late night hours at work” are not spent at work unless your work contains late night hours fooling around with your co-worker. You are not fooling anyone, except your clueless wives maybe. Men walk around acting like they own the place and they are the ones who run this world. Last time I checked women are the ones who brought you into this world and we can take you right out of it. The saying “You can’t live with them and you can’t live without them”, is an understatement. I know plenty of women who can live without them and I am one of them.
P.S. To the men that do not treat women like garbage...thank you, do not change because women need good guys out there to treat them the way they should be treated.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
"You're Pathetic."
"You're Pathetic", is a lovely sentence that I have used recently now toward a certain person. Well, it's true. We all know who I am talking about, Mr. Abusive. Honesty always was the best policy, it has been taught down for many generations, so yes I will call you pathetic because it is the truth. Getting your lame friends to add me on Facebook just to be a spy for you is...PATHETIC. Lying under oath when you are supposively a "so-called" christian is...PATHETIC. Dating minor girlfriends because you can not get someone your own age is...PATHETIC, I don't blame those older mature girls because you are too immature and dumb to date someone your own age. How old are you? Oh yes, 21. Ha. Lame. You....are....indeed, pathetic. Enough said.
So, "Mr. Abusive" why did you always tell me to be honest with you when you can not even handle the truth? Oh yes that's right, you are too immature to handle the truth. I always got told I was immature by you and you were the mature one. I am 17. You are 21. When I posted on my Facebook status, "You're Pathetic.", you went on your page and bashed me. Hmmm...is that mature? No. I spoke the truth while all you did was commit slander and cry like a big baby. Come on, really? You said I was immature? Ha. Pathetic.
So, "Mr. Abusive" why did you always tell me to be honest with you when you can not even handle the truth? Oh yes that's right, you are too immature to handle the truth. I always got told I was immature by you and you were the mature one. I am 17. You are 21. When I posted on my Facebook status, "You're Pathetic.", you went on your page and bashed me. Hmmm...is that mature? No. I spoke the truth while all you did was commit slander and cry like a big baby. Come on, really? You said I was immature? Ha. Pathetic.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Psychotic Family.
As we all know, I am pregnant. There has been a lot of issues since I found out I was pregnant. The issues have came from my baby's father side of the family. They are nothing but psychotic. When I found out I was pregnant, I was only four weeks. They had already bought furniture and clothing for the baby and what pissed me off the most was that it was all boy furniture and clothing. I mean, I am not mad because it was all boy furniture and clothing, it was the fact that they had already had it "planned" and "figured out" that it was going to be a boy. Every time that I would speak of it being a girl or even when I said "What if it is a girl?", they got mad at me. What the hell is up with that? Sounds a little sexist to me. Don't get me wrong, but I would love to have a boy but then again what if it is a girl? It was rude in my opinion. Another thing that royally pissed me off was that they were buying furniture and clothes that early into my pregnancy because I was only four weeks. Four weeks is very early in a pregnancy because at that time you do not know if you are going to miscarry or if something might go wrong. That family is so arrogant with themselves. For instance, his mother already had it planned out that she would have my baby, MY BABY, the most. Sorry, I don't think so, lady. She can not even raise her own kids, so why would I let her have any control over mine? That's right, I am not going to let her except for maybe when hell decided to freeze over but I don't see that happening anytime soon. I would never let my baby around a woman who lets men trade in Hydrocodones to have sex with her or would I ever, ever let my baby around the abusive kids she raised. The father of my child decided to beat the crap out of a 15 year old who suffered from Asperger's syndrome aka Autism while he was still in high school. Thank god, the authorities decided to kick him out of that high school. Who in the hell has the nerve to do that to a special child? Would you let your children be around someone like that? I don't think you would and if you did...you need counseling. Even though that was back in 2009, he tells people he has changed but if he did change then why would I be in the situation I am in now? Exactly, he hasn't changed and probably never will. Even his sister commits domestic violence and abuses drugs. What kind of people are they? Psychotic, arrogant people if you ask me. Yes, I know I messed up and got into a relationship with a guy I did not know anything about and I regret it til this day but everyone messes up in their lifetime. I know I am not the only one who has gone through this. So, do any of you think I should let them have any rights to my baby? Please leave me a comment and give me your feedback. To the people who read my blogs, I am sorry to come off harsh but it is my time to have my voice heard.
Pregnant at an Early Age.
Becoming pregnant at an early age is definately a life changing experience. Even though I have not experienced being a mother just yet, I have changed a lot in my life to ready myself for this baby. I am going to be a single mother since the father is not welcomed in our lives due to the fact that he was an abusive human-being. I do not know what kind of mother would let someone like that stay in their lives, especially in their baby's life because it is our duty as a parent to keep our children safe and protected from those who are dangerous. I am willing to fight for my child and I will do what ever it takes to keep him away from my family, my baby, and myself.
I have decided to put college and work aside for right now so that I can go through a safe pregnancy and so I can prepare myself for this baby. After I have my baby, I plan on attending a community college and then going off to a four year university for my Master degrees in Computer Science and in Crminal Justice. As for work, I plan to work in a hospital as a pharmacy technician. My college courses will be taken at night so I can watch my baby during the day and hopefully my mom can watch him/her at night when she gets off work. I know it will be hard, but I am always up for a little challenge.
My family have been really supportive. At first, I was really scared for them to know that I was in fact pregnant at 17 with someone I barely knew. They have been supportive even though we are all not proud of who the father of my baby is. We all make mistakes. I am not saying that my baby is a mistake, but the father definately is, indeed, a mistake. I am glad I have a loving and supportive family, because if I did not have any of that, I do not know where I would be in life.
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